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This is the fist time since we have been TTC that I have just cried my eyes out. Not that I haven't cried before, but this was different. I had to work today and I swear I couldn't turn that shit off. I know much of it has to do with PMSing and clomid, but it really hit me hard.

Then, I realized how difficult the morning was, but now in the evening it's like I'm ready to move on again. (could be the wine, LOL) I'm so bummed that it didn't work, but more so because I know DH was so hopeful. Breaks my heart :( I just HAVE to move forward or I'll lose hope.

I've already scheduled our cd3 b/w and u/s for Monday.... sooooooooooo can I get some good thoughts for IUI #2?? Puleeeeeaaaase? xoxoxo

So I tested today- 11dpiui

and of course it was negative. I know its early, and it was actually a diluted sample (I went to bed really late and tested pretty early so there wasn't much time in between) so I'm not devastated just yet.

I will say that I'm not becoming anymore hopeful though. I think I'll wait till 9/9 which is 14dpo. AF should be here around that time so she may actually beat me to it.
It's good we have IUI #2 already set in motion

My Birthday week is just about here!

So, my bff and I started this thing where we get a whole week for our birthday (meaning, its more special than other weeks for the birthday girl). So then I passed this on to DH and we've been doing them ever since. It could be as simple as you get out of doing the dishes, maybe get a foot massage, no extra errands etc... just makes it more fun.
I can't wait for it! I'm excited to see what goodness comes my way! lol

YAY for b-day weeks!

I use this word a lot

"Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul. And sings the tune without the words, and never stops at all" - Emily Dickinson

My good bumpie friend today announced a BFN that broke my heart. She of all people deserves to be a mom, and as I sit here tearing up writing this.... I can't help but hope this is not the end for her. If your reading this.... I would give my right arm if it meant a baby for you. Don't give up hope xoxo
αγάπη,
-Papps

IUI # 1

Went super duper well :) DH is so proud of his little troopers.... post wash count was 77 mil with 90% motility! They said his progression was a 3+ (I have no idea what that means.... but they said its on a scale of 1-4).

We were there for quite some time, but the actual procedure took seconds! I'm stoked! Funny, the lady who did it was this super sweet gal, but she came back into the room after she had us lay there a few minutes and asked if we were pregnant LOL She was awesome.

I'm not going to lie, I'm hopeful this cycle. I know the odds still aren't superb, but we're going to be optimistic this go around :) Wish us luck!!

*This one is for qtsreign*

Ok, how about this???


Or this?

How about this?

Or them?

That's all I got.... work with me here hon!! lol

Ahhhhhhhhh obsessions :)

So, ever since I saw Eminem in Concert back in 2002, I have always had a crush on him. Every now and then the innocent obsession returns. How can one not think this is hotness? lol



Ok, how about this?



So edible!

...A spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down!

In ev'ry job that must be done
There is an element of fun
you find the fun and snap!
The job's a game

Nad ev'ry task you undertake
Becomes a piece of cake
A lark! Aspree!
It's very clear to me

That a...
Spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down
The medicine go down-wown
The medicine go down
Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down
In a most delightful way

A robin feathering his nest
Has very little time to rest
While gathering his
Bits of twine and twig

Though quite intent in his pursuit
He has a merry tune to toot
He knows a song
Will move the job along

For a...
Spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down
The medicine go down-wown
The medicine go down
Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down
In a most delightful way

-Mary Poppins

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Papps on Clomid~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Heaven~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Papps after heaven~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



Funny how it's the little things in life that cheer you up! LOLZ (thanks PFF for your inspiration about not wasting food) :o)

Alright ladies...... blog is public again

I started to greatly dislike the template form of blogger, so I changed back to the original backgrounds- but had to create a new blog per se. I lost all my followers when doing so :( and I'm too lazy to re-send all the invites! So I deleted the more private info, and we'll go back to a public blog

The worst feeling ever :(

So, I had this crazy urge to POAS yesterday and so I did. We actually saw two pink lines for the first time in my life! We ran to get a digital and more line sticks for this morning and were beaming (although super nervous).

So, I tested today, and they were both negative. I went in to Kaiser (only because I already had an appt set up) and she said her guess is it was a chemical pregnancy- but they won't do a beta yet. She says if I don't get AF in the next week to come in. I don't feel like driving all the way over to my RE's office so we'll just wait it out.

It was short lived excitement but what can you do. I will say, I haven't been this sad in quite some time. I've been pretty good about not getting my hopes up, but when I saw that second line my heart melted.

So, IUI- here we come

I've had the most wonderful vacation so far!

First DH and I went camping last Tues and came back on Thurs (that was a ton of fun). Then Friday I turned around and came to Cali to see my sister and her new baby. I love both my nephews so much. The oldest who is 2.5 years old is such a sweetheart and VERY smart for his age (kinda hoping he makes millions to take care of auntie) ::wink wink::
My mom came down with me so it's been a lot of fun. My grandma is here and we've all been hanging out, helping my sister :)

Tonight I pack up for the Bay Area to see friends and of course mdluvie! W00t! Can't wait! Hope everyone is doing well..... I miss you

xoxo
Papps