Our Arduous Journey: Beta # 2

Monday, February 7, 2011

Beta # 2

Came back great! We're looking at a sweet 277 :)
I still can't believe that this is happening to ME. It's surreal. It's so crazy because I spent sooo much time learning about TTC, infertility and all that jazz, that I don't have a clue as to what to do when pregnant! I am a fish out of water. 100% lost and unsure of what's next. My RE didn't tell me much except for take it easy, relax and enjoy and if I see the dreaded blood, call. Great, thanks!

Though I'm beyond thrilled, I will say that a part of me is so sad. I have met so many wonderful ladies on the TTTC, TTGP & Infertility boards that I'm sad to leave. Of course I'm happy for my graduation, but it just feels strange. I guess that just means I have many more boards to go to when I log on :o)

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DaysieFebruary 7, 2011 at 5:53 PM
Papps!! I'm Happy you have left us!! I'm so excited for you!
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Kathy4678February 7, 2011 at 5:55 PM
SO thrilled for you! Enjoy it- you deserve it Papps!!
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JenniFebruary 7, 2011 at 6:32 PM
Congrats Papps! I agree that it feels surreal. I'm 8 weeks and it still doesn't feel real and I still haven't really moved on to the month boards. But congrats, I'm so excited for you!
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JENN February 7, 2011 at 6:48 PM
I was waiting for this post! I am beyond happy for you!! Again, congratulations to you Papps!!
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The EcholsFebruary 7, 2011 at 9:57 PM
I am so happy for you!!!
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Katib77February 8, 2011 at 6:28 AM
Congrats Pappsie! Don't worry about moving on, you can still visit us at Grad check in's ;) and others. Plus there are some I'm sure you'll never lose touch with.
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The Many Thoughts of a ReaderFebruary 8, 2011 at 7:12 AM
;) I am so happy for you!
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MrsVoFebruary 8, 2011 at 7:31 AM
Just so totally thrilled for you Papps!!
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CatherineFebruary 8, 2011 at 9:22 AM
so happy for you, honey!!!
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AmberFebruary 8, 2011 at 12:01 PM
YAY! I completely understand how you are feeling. Ohh I am so thrilled for you!
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qtsreign/SylviaFebruary 8, 2011 at 1:40 PM
kickass!
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GigiFebruary 8, 2011 at 2:53 PM
Holy crap Papps! I just saw this! Congrats 1000x! :)
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A Reflective Poem

I WILL BE

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover.
I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense; that I have been given me this insight,
this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that I am led to, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured.
I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life. Yes I will be a wonderful mother.

-Author Unknown, taken from TTGP

Monday, February 7, 2011

Beta # 2

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