Wednesday, February 2, 2011

The anxiety is killing me

I hate the unknown. Seriously, I've never been patient. Infertility kind of has forced you into it, but I fight :)

Tomorrow is a big day for MH and I. If our beta comes back positive, and all goes well, we'll have a take home baby. If it's negative, we will stop treatments for a while. We were going to wait up to a year, but found out some of my meds expire in June, so we might try another one then.

I always try to prepare myself by looking forward- what the next cycle brings us, and how much closer we could be to our dream. This time is different. I have no cycle coming up, no chance of said baby. This scares the living shit out of me.

I guess all I can do is expect the worst, hope for the best. Uplifting right?

14 comments :

  1. Papps! I'll be thinking of you! (((hugs))) Hoping for the best!

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  2. Ive been thinking about you the last few days wondering when the big day was...Im saying prayers and sending good beta vibes your way!! Cant wait for an update!

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  3. I really hope this is it for you! I'm crossing my fingers for awesome news tomorrow!

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  4. Thinking of you and hoping for nothing but good things for you Papps!!

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  5. I really hope you get fantastic news tomorrow! You're so strong to wait it out and not POAS! Good luck:)

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  6. Good luck tomorrow! I hope you get good news!

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  7. Fingers crossed for you Papps!!

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  8. Wishing you nothing but luck and love for tomorrow!

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  9. Good luck tomorrow!! My beta is tomorrow too, so I'm in the same boat with you.

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  10. OMG!!! So soon!! I will definitely be thinking of you and praying for you that THIS IS IT! Much love babe!!!
    -OCW2010

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  11. Good luck, Papps! You're in my thoughts and prayers! <3

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  12. Best of luck!!! I have been thinking of you and praying for a positive beta!

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