Saturday, December 17, 2011

Amelia's first Christmas :)

Sorry I've been MIA.... there's just not a whole lot going on right now besides feedings, poop and all that happens with a sweet baby <3 I just thought I would share a few pictures of my sweet little girl! We just saw Santa this morning, and she loved it :) Image and video hosting by TinyPic

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And a rare one of mommy and Amelia lol
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Sunday, November 20, 2011

Last Days


Things have been slightly hectic since Amelia came home, so I apologize for my lack of blogging. She is absolutely precious, I love her more and more every day :)

Tomorrow is my 6 week pp check up, and as I am sitting here sipping wine, I'm feeling great and ready to jump into working out. Today is my last day of what I am calling free. My free for all if you will. I plan to begin hitting the gym and eating better. So I was looking on Pinterest and came across this. This is my motivation :)

"Set your alarm for 6am. Don’t groan when it goes off and pull the covers over your head, get up and start your day. Put on a baggy top and running shorts. Go downstairs and pour yourself a nice big glass of ice water. Cut up some fruit and mix it in with yogurt. Add some granola. Now go outside. Stretch for 10 minutes. Skip for 5 minutes. Jog for 10 minutes. Run for 10 minutes. Walk back. Lay out a towel on the ground and lie down on it. Do 50 crunches. Yes, they hurt, but they are 100% worth it. When you’re done, get in the shower. Use a nice smelling shampoo and matching conditioner. Shave your legs and wash your body. Exfoliate your face. Get out of the shower and let your hair air dry. Look in the mirror. Do you like what you see? If you do, good for you. Do this every day and you will continue to love yourself. If you don’t like what you see, do this every day and pretty soon you will. Being lazy might feel good at the time, but being active feels better in the long run. How badly do you want it?" MOTIVATION.

I'll try and post up a few pictures of my little pumpkin soon!


Thursday, October 27, 2011

Belated Birth Story!

Ok, my apologies for the delay in our Amelia's birth story. Things have been a little hectic to say the least, and blogging has been the last thing on my mind lately!
So, without further ado......

Our journey began with my 37 week appointment. I saw a new OB that was recommended by my midwife (had to see an OB due to gestation diabetes), and that OB stated in her medical opinion I needed to have a scheduled c-section due to the possible size of the baby- my 36w6d u/s guesstimate was 8 lbs 2 oz at that point. I told her I wanted to try a vaginal birth, and she tried to talk me out of it by scaring me with horror stories.
Soooo, I rescheduled my 38 week appointment with my MW even though I wasn't supposed to see her. When I went in, I told her about the OB, and that I at least wanted to give a vaginal birth a shot before giving in to a c-sec. She totally agreed with me! :) She said because I was a gestational diabetic, the placenta can start to deteriorate early (not to mention her size they were guessing) they wanted to induce me at 39 weeks.

Fast forward to Sunday, October 9th (39 weeks exactly). We went in at 0600, and was admitted right away. I dressed down, we got comfy and waited. They came in and got all our info, birth plan etc and then we waited some more. Almost 4 hours more :/
They came in and apologized for the delay... I guess they had 3 emergency deliveries, so of course we were ok with it all. They gave me this pill called MISO to help my cervix become even more favorable for the pitocin since I was only 2 cm dilated and 50% effaced. I had to lay there for a few hours, then they came back and checked me again. I had dilated to 3 cm, 60% effaced, but nothing much more. She said since I was having so many contractions, they could not give me another one to make sure they didn't harm the baby. I had to let my body do more laboring on it's own, then they would start pitocin once I did.

Now the fun stuff!! At 1645, the doc came back in, checked me and told me I was 4 cm, 60% effaced. They then started the pitocin. My contractions almost instantly became stronger and no longer felt like strong cramps. I was determined to try a med free birth, so I continued through them like champ. At 0400 on 10/10, I woke up and felt the need to use the restroom, and as soon as I stood up, I felt this gush of fluid. Since I had just woken up, I thought I was peeing myself and could not stop laughing! I was cracking up as the fluid just kept gushing down my legs onto the floor while I'm trying to gather my IV. LOL
I finally made it to the bathroom with the IV, and hollered for my husband to grab me a towel. Then I told him to get a nurse because I thought my water just broke.
Nurse came in, looked at the towel and told me it was my water, though it looked like meconium on the towel. Cue freakout! She told me not to worry, that it would be ok, they just monitor the baby a little bit more.
At 0500, the contractions became unbeareable to me, so I asked for the epidural. BEST THING EVER!!!!!!!!! I didn't like not feeling my legs, but no longer felt like I was dying (yes, I'm a big baby). I recommend an epidural if you're thinking about getting one.

Around 1600, the midwife came back in and said I was 9 cm dilated and almost 100% effaced- YAY! Almost time to push! :) They turned back the epi (per my request so I could feel my contractions and know when to push). I started pushing around 1700- and pushed for an hour. It was at that point they said the baby was "sunnyside up" and wanted to try and turn her since it can cause damage on the baby if she comes our face up. They turned up the epi again so that I wouldn't feel the urge to push, and laid me on my side with my leg up. I stayed like this for an hour before she came back in and had me start pushing again. With the epi turned back down, I started pushing and the midwife said she was still face up. :( I thought this would never end! She told me to keep pushing and she would manually try to turn her, so we went with it.
I pushed for another hour and a half when I'm not sure if she was seeing my fatigue, or if I was truly close, but she finally said I was so close to meeting my baby girl. The reason I question it was because my husband did overhear her talking to the nurse and mention the possibility of an emergency c-section :(

By this point I was exhausted and had no idea how I would keep going, but refused to give up since I had gone through all this and come this far. My husband was the best coach I could have asked for <3 He helped me and gave me the strength to push on. He coached me, fanned me when I overheated, held my hand and continuously told me how good I was doing. I love this man. Almost another full hour of pushing and our comes our little Amelia (face down I might add thanks to the MW). She was rushed over to the side to be cleaned up due to the meconium, but then was brought right back over to me and I never wanted to let her go. She was precious; the most beautiful thing I have ever laid eyes on. The rest is a blur. I know they had me push a few more times to deliver the placenta, but I was so fixated on my husband and new baby, that I didn't pay any attention to the world around me. Recovery has been great (though still recovering) and Amelia is doing fantastic!! All 8 lbs 2 oz of her! I'm so glad I pushed for a vaginal birth, and went against the OB's advice. I had a wonderful, albeit long delivery, and wouldn't change it for the world.

Here's a picture right after birth :)
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And another one earlier this week
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If you made it all the way, thanks for reading!

Monday, September 26, 2011

37 Weeks and some change

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*How far along?: 37w2d

*Total weight gain: mid 20's

*How big is baby?: Huge ;) Watermelon. As of my growth u/s at 36w6d they think she is already 8 lbs 1 oz

*Sleep?: Yeah, not so much

*How are you feeling physically? These past few weeks have been very difficult. She has positioned herself more in more pelvis which is painful and uncomfortable and I have slowly started to progress in terms of becoming dilated (though I was never told the number). YAY!

*How are you feeling emotionally?: A ball of emotions. SO excited to meet her!!!!!

*Movement?: Yes and she hurts her mama. It's still amazing to watch my belly move all over the place

*Food cravings?: Nah, not so much anything right now

*Labor signs?: Yes. I've been having cramping and more painful BH contractions, though nothing close to hard labor

*What I miss: Being more mobile, sleeping in my own bed (now sleeping sitting up on the couch) and a nice glass of Pinot :o)

*What I'm looking forward to: Holding my sweet baby girl!

*Random Thoughts: Can my vag handle a large baby!?!?!? LOL OMFG I'm a little nervous :) I have decided to try and labor as long as I can without meds so I can be mobile, but I will opt for an epi

Sunday, September 11, 2011

I hit 35/35!!!

Ok, one day past due on this, but the picture is from yesterday. How in the world did I make it here? I remember how much doubt I had that I would ever be able to get pregnant, and here I am. If there is one thing I can pass on, it's to never give up!

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*How far along?: 35w1d

*Total weight gain: mid 20's

*How big is baby?: Honeydew (4.5-5.5 lbs)

*Sleep?: What's that?

*How are you feeling physically? Overall pretty good, though I'm starting to exhaust quickly and can feel my body shifting for delivery which is somewhat painful.

*How are you feeling emotionally?: Fantastic! I am so ready for her :)

*Movement?: Yes, though it has slowed down some since she has less room. She loves to kick the top of my belly with her heels though LOL

*Food cravings?: Anything the GD diet tells me not to have? haha

*Labor signs?: Nope

*What I miss: Being able to walk normally (no waddling, grunting) :)

*What I'm looking forward to: Her delivery

*Random Thoughts: We are now totally prepared for her when she comes. The nursery is done (though she'll be sleeping in a bassinet in our room for a while), clothes & blankets are washed, bouncer and swing set up and we picked up the last few things we needed for a while from the store! :) Hopefully it's another month before she's here though, but we're ready for her!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Nursery is done! Whew!

So, we finally got the last decorations up in the nursery, and besides waiting to get the crib mattress and bedding all set up (trying to the keep curious cat way from crib) were done! Feels so good to have it completed. MH just said tonight that we need to pack our hospital bag now and we're good to go. I think he's looking forward to putting the car seats in too :o)

Here's some pictures :)

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Here's her closet full of new clothes from the shower, and hand-me-downs :) And tons of diapers!
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Her dresser is full of more clothes (mainly onsies and sleepers from newborn to 12 months), blankets and sleep sacks. It's nice to feel prepared... at least in this aspect!


Sunday, August 14, 2011

Thinking about deleting my blog..... question for you

First off, I apologize for being such a lame blogger lately. Things have been pretty hectic and I just don't have much to update on lately, hence the cease in postings!

My question is for those who have had kids or life just becomes pretty busy, do you still find joy in blogging (or the time)?

I've had so much fun blogging while TTC, but for some reason things have just slowed down and I don't want to bore the crap out of anyone with posts about nothing. It makes me sad to think about deleting my blog, but I'm not sure if I will want to continue. Any advice is welcomed!!!


Wednesday, July 27, 2011

GD Update

So today I went in for my what I call the "prick test". The nurse taught me how to check my blood sugar levels and gave me a few pamphlets on good foods/bad foods until I can meet with a nutritionist.

I will say I went in EXTREMELY nervous, but left feeling much better. When she had me assembling the wand/needle, I was literally shaking. I could feel my heart just pounding!! So I finally worked up the nerve to test on my finger, and it didn't work. So I tried again. Again no-go. One last time and finally the needle pierced the skin haha. Talk about anxiety! Anywho, it truly didn't hurt too badly... I guess Kaiser started using a needle that draws less blood, but hurts much less (I'm ok with that!)

I found out that I failed my initial blood draw for the 3hr GTT by 1 point. They want to see my fasting blood sugar level under 95, and it was 96. Today I tested after lunch and it was at a 90, so I'm thinking that's good|!?!

All in all not a bad day. I feel like I'm taking back some control I felt I lost a few days ago :o)

Monday, July 25, 2011

Gestational Diabetes

Ok, so this was not what I was hoping to hear today when I went in for my 3 hour glucose test. In fact, I was totally prepared to sit there for 4 hours, have them call me and hopefully tell me we're good to go.

Instead, I go in, get my baseline blood draw to show I was fasting, and apparently my fasting glucose level was already way high, so my doc advised to skip the drink, and go straight to making an appt with a nutritionist who specializes in GD.

My first thought was fuck me. Why does shit like this always have to happen? Why can't I catch a flippin break?!? But then after I wiped away the tears and drove back to work, I thought to myself that it's not the end of the world. At worst I have to prick my fingers and go the insulin route. At best I have to log my meals and watch my diet- oh and still prick my fingers. At least now I know there is an issue and can take all measures to ensure that Amelia has the best health possible.

I posted on a few boards looking for advice on where to look for suggestions etc... and got some good advice in general! Now I just have to wait until I get a call and set up an appt and go from there. MH is already very supportive in helping me plan my meals, and keeps reminding me that it's only temporary.

Hopefully this will get me on a good track in terms of eating well, which will lead to weight loss after baby is here! I have heard people lose weight once going on this diet, but at this moment that is not my main goal.
I just want to bring home a sweet, healthy baby girl :)

So off I go into the unknown world of GD! Wish us all luck! <3

Saturday, July 23, 2011

I'm still alive!!! *28 Weeks*

Sorry I have been MIA lately. I guess I don't have a ton of new things going on, my life has somewhat slowed down lately. We are making amazing progress on the nursery, so hopefully later this week I'll have pictures to post up!

So today we invited my FIL and Step-MIL to our 3/4D ultrasound. It was such a great experience! Seriously the only dry eye in the house was the tech ;) Amelia of course was stubborn and kept trying to block our view. She'd roll over or put her hands and/or feet in front of her face just to keep us away. Pretty funny shit if you ask me. We paid for 15-20 mins of u/s, but the tech went for just a little over an hour with us- just so we could get some good shots (we'd get a few then she'd move) Here are a few of our fav's :o)

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How far along?: 28 Weeks

*Total weight gain: 19 lbs as of last appt

*How big is baby?: Still the size of a eggplant

*Sleep?: I try! I have begun napping in my car again on breaks ;)

*How are you feeling physically? Feeling great besides the heartburn and swollen feet! If this is all I have to endure, I feel blessed!!!

*How are you feeling emotionally?: Fantastic!

*Best moment this week?: Seeing Amelia in 3D today

*Movement?: All.the.time. She likes to kick her mama- especially when it's time for me to go to bed!

*Food cravings?: Ice cream and mexican food

*Labor signs?: Nope

*What I miss: Right now nothing much. I'm loving this

*What I'm looking forward to: Getting the nursery done

*Random Thoughts: Now that we've seen her in 3D, I can't help but wonder what she'll look like as a newborn!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

26 Weeks and some drama!

Ok, so this is a few days early, but I am going out of town and won't have a chance to update.

So a few big ticket items I have to discuss today. First off, I realized that today I have 100 days left, tomorrow will be double digits!!!! Holy shit times flies right?!?!?!?

Secondly, today I made a trip to L&D because I had a scare :( I had a gush of fluid a few days back, followed by some cramping. This morning I realized I haven't been feeling Amelia as much, so I freaked the fuck out.
They hooked me up to the monitors and checked my goodies and all is well. They said I most likely peed myself a little (congrats to me!) and I'm most likely having Braxton Hicks contractions. I feel better knowing that everything is ok, but not too fond of the idea of peeing myself LOL

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How far along?: 26 Weeks!! (almost)

*Total weight gain: 16 lbs as of last appt

*How big is baby?: Still the size of a eggplant

*Sleep?: More awake than sleep

*How are you feeling physically? This week has been a bit rough just with not knowing what was going on, but I love feeling her move around which outweighs anything bad!

*How are you feeling emotionally?: Better now that I went to the hospital

*Best moment this week?: Seeing my stomach move when Amelia kicks me

*Movement?: See above post ;)

*Food cravings?: Alright I found one.... it's been ice cream all the way! (had my first DQ Blizzard last night!!)

*Labor signs?: No, but I had my BH scare moment

*What I miss: Being totally mobile

*What I'm looking forward to: Our 3/4D u/s in a few weeks!!

*Random Thoughts: Time is flying by now and I'm feeling the pressure of my previous laziness! lol

Saturday, June 25, 2011

W00T W00T!! V-day baby!

Can I just say how thrilled I am to have made it to this point? What an amazing milestone :)
MH and I went to IKEA today and bought a few things.... I can't for him to put together the dresser, and the flower lamp to go with the lady bug lamp It should hopefully be cute! We didn't want an expensive dresser until we move into our home, so this cheapie should work perfectly! I loaf IKEA :)

Here's me!
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How far along?: 24 Weeks!!

*Total weight gain: 16 lbs as of last Wed

*How big is baby?: Still the size of a Papapya

*Sleep?: Give and take

*How are you feeling physically? Wonderful! I seem to tire more easily, but otherwise good

*How are you feeling emotionally?: I have great days and I have cranky days lol My patience level has slipped

*Best moment this week?: Feeling her kick on a daily basis. She moves around a TON now

*Movement?: See above post ;)

*Food cravings?: Nothin really at the moment

*Labor signs?: No

*What I miss: Sleeping on mah belleh

*What I'm looking forward to: Having the baby's room totally done..... I've been slacking lately

*Random Thoughts: We have 16 weeks (give or take a few weeks) until she's here!! ZOMG!!!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

A few firsts!

So today was our first 80* weather we've really had all year (I'm hoping this is finally the start of summer) and boy did my body react! Here's a picture of my feet (you can actually press things against my calves and leave an imprint for a good 5 mins) LOL
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And here is a belly shot from boob angle ;) My first time taking one of these!
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Thursday, June 16, 2011


I have something for you......
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So many emotions run through me on a daily basis still to this day. Yes, I got pregnant, but I'm still not "normal".

I have trouble being totally happy and ok with this pregnancy. For some reason I feel like something will happen and that it will be taken away from me. I guess after all the heartache I endured dealing with infertility, it's difficult to just forget all the aches and pains.

Don't get me wrong, I am forever happy I've made it this far, and can only hope and pray that things go great until delivery, but I don't know if I will ever be one of those people who can just be obliviously happy.

Of course I have my days of being on cloud nine, but those insecurities are still lingering around making it painfully difficult to move forward. Odds are greatly stacked against me that I'll ever get to know what it feels like to be a "oops, it just happened" girl, or "it took little to no effort."

Light at the end of the tunnel- I guess it makes me that much more appreciative of what I have and are working towards. Amelia will never know how much her mom and dad truly went through to see her smile

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Baby Nursery- Stage 3 of progress

So it's coming together... we got the crib, glider, swing and bassinet put together yesterday, and took the out bedding to air out (we'll wash it closer to baby's arrival). It feels odd, yet so overly exciting to have it becoming a baby room :) MH kept walking in there yesterday, sitting on the glider and just looking at everything saying how exciting.

We still have a LONG way to go though... I have to put up the wall decor (and buy some, yippee!) then we need to get a dresser and arrange the closet- which by the way still has baby items that my sister donated (besides the swing and bassinet). Once Amelia is here, we'll move the bassinet into our room, and the swing out into the living room- but for now, it goes all into the one room.

Here are some pics we took :)

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That's a gorilla in the bumbo ;o)

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There's a blanket over the bassinet so that kitties don't climb in, sorry!


Saturday, June 11, 2011

*22 weeks*

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How far along?: 22 Weeks!!

*Total weight gain: I'm avoiding the scale

*How big is baby?: The size of a Papapya

*Sleep?: Give and take

*How are you feeling physically? Wonderful!

*How are you feeling emotionally?: Pretty blessed

*Best moment this week?: Getting the crib, glider, rocker and bassinet put together :)

*Movement?: Daily!

*Food cravings?: Chex Muddy Buddies

*Labor signs?: No

*What I miss: This week I miss a nice glass of chilled white wine

*What I'm looking forward to: Putting up decorations in the baby room

*Random Thoughts: I do feel a bit strange now that we have so much baby stuff put together- almost as if I just jinxed myself :(

Monday, June 6, 2011

You never know where you'll be found!

So, a friend of mine was looking for information about Femara so I went looking for the link for a recent free Femara prescription (like I had placed in my blog a while back) and this is what I found..... Google Link
I know my blog is open now and that it could be found, but I suppose I never thought it would be that easy as to type in a blurb and find me! Yowza! lol

Hopefully if someone clicked to my blog, that it helped them get the free meds!!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

The old-new bookshelf

So I spent much of the early morning staining our bookshelf to match the furniture we're getting..... I think I'll have to do a second coat, but we'll see!

Before color-
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Here's an after shot
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(Sorry for the glare on this one... it was taken outside!)

*21 Weeks*

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*How far along?: 21 Weeks

*Total weight gain: 10 lbs as of my last appt!

*How big is baby?: The size of a Banana!

*Sleep?: I found a new way to fluff my surroundings..... let's just say I'm sleeping well!!! :)

*How are you feeling physically? Wonderful!

*How are you feeling emotionally?: For the first time in a long time I'm feeling balanced

*Best moment this week?: When DH felt her kick from the outside :o)

*Movement?: Daily! I'm just starting to feel her from the outside and it's amazing

*Food cravings?: Carbonation. Again.

*Labor signs?: No

*What I miss: Recently it's laying on my back and stomach

*What I'm looking forward to: clearing out the baby room so we can start making it an actual baby room! lol

*Random Thoughts: I wonder how many (if many at all) stretch marks will I get?!?

Monday, May 30, 2011

Memorial Day- Please remember those who have fallen for our freedom

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My husband served two tours in Iraq when the war first began, and lost many friends over there. Many of them left families behind who I'm sure are grieving today. Please remember that they are our fathers and mothers, sisters and brothers, sons and daughters.

This song by Tim Mcgraw always brings me to tears-

You're reading this, my mama's sittin there

Look's like I only got a one way ticket over here

I sure wish I could give you one more kiss

War was just a game we played when we were kids

Well I'm layin down my gun and hanging up my boots

I'm up here with God and we're both watching over you

So lay me down

In that open field out on the edge of town

And know my soul

Is where my mama always prayed that it would go

And if you're reading this

I'm already home

If you're reading this halfway around the world

I won't be there to see the birth of our little girl

I hope she looks like you

I hope she fights like me

And stands up for the innocent and the weak

I'm layin down my gun and hanging up my boots

Tell dad I don't regret that I followed in his shoes

So lay me down

In that open field out on the edge of town

And know my soul

Is where my mama always prayed that it would go

And if you're reading this

I'm already home

If you're reading this, there's gonna come a day

When you'll move on and find someone else, and that's ok

Just remember this

I'm in a better place

Where soldiers live in peace and angels sing Amazing Grace

So lay me down

In that open field out on the edge of town

And know my soul

Is where my mama always prayed that it would go

And if you're reading this

If you're reading this...

I'm already home

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Saturday, May 28, 2011

Half Baked!!

*20 Weeks*

I can't believe how fast time is flying by... Here's a bump pic taken today
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*How far along?: 20 Weeks

*Total weight gain: 10 lbs squeeee!

*How big is baby?: The size of a Cantalope!

*Sleep?: Um yeah, trying my best :)

*How are you feeling physically? Feeling great actually!

*How are you feeling emotionally?: My patience has disappeared, but otherwise fantastic

*Best moment this week?: Seeing and feeling Amelia kick while at our anatomy scan! Oh and confirming she's an Amelia :)

*Movement?: I'm feeling her start to kick daily, it's pretty stinkin cool

*Food cravings?: Carbonation

*Labor signs?: Hope not!

*What I miss: A nice glass of vino

*What I'm looking forward to: Seeing her kick from the outside. I know MH would LOVE to see that

*Random Thoughts: It's amazing to think I'm half way there (even less if she decides to debut a little bit early) I count my blessings daily <3


Saturday, May 21, 2011

*19 Weeks*

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*How far along?: 19 Weeks

*Total weight gain: 4 lbs as of the last doctor's appt

*How big is baby?: The size of a Mango!

*Sleep?: Meh, okay

*How are you feeling physically?: Physically doing ok, still have a wee bit of swelling but nothing huge

*How are you feeling emotionally?: Had a mini meltdown yesterday, but doing better today ;o)

*Best moment this week?: Clearing stuff out of the computer room/soon-to-be baby room

*Movement?: I felt her kick a few times last week! It was amazing

*Food cravings?: Carbonation

*Labor signs?: Nope

*What I miss: Sleeping through the night

*What I'm looking forward to: Our anatomy scan!

*Random Thoughts: I can't help but wonder how large I'll get towards the end! I feel like I'm pretty big now, so we'll have to wait it out and see! :)

Friday, May 20, 2011

Pitty Party

So today was the first time I truly felt fat since I've been pregnant. I know I was still larger than I ever had been when we were cycling because of all the weight I gained, but this was a different feeling. I've been so in love with my body growing something inside me; it made me feel so good. Of course I'm going to get larger right? Well that is how I felt up until today.

I wore this outfit that just made me SO uncomfortable. You know the kind where you're contstantly tugging at the clothes because you feel like they are just riding up or not looking correct? I felt like I put baby water wings on my arms and stuffed a pillow in the ass of my pants. Yup, that was me. I was so ashamed that I let myself get to that point even before we got pregnant... and now, by the time the baby is here, I will have hit a weight that I should NEVER have been at, even if I were carrying twins.

Oh well, I guess there is not much I can do about it now. I'd still take Jaba the Hut to ensure my baby girl comes out healthy and safe! Makes me wonder though if I'm only 5 months now, how am I going to feel at 7 or 8, when it's 100* outside and I've swelled up like a puffer fish :)~

Sunday, May 15, 2011

18 Weeks

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*How far along?: 18 Weeks

*Total weight gain: 4 lbs as of the last doctor's appt

*How big is baby?: The size of a sweet potato!

*Sleep?: Still waking up all.the.time

*How are you feeling physically?: Can't really complain much. I've started swelling in my ankles and feet, but other than that.... not too shabby

*How are you feeling emotionally?: Good, but I dwell up at anything emotional on TV (commercials included) :o)

*Best moment this week?: Finding out we're having a girl!

*Movement?: Nope.

*Food cravings?: At the moment, nothing really

*Labor signs?: Nope

*What I miss: Sleeping through the night

*What I'm looking forward to: Our anatomy scan!

*Random Thoughts: Baby registries are MUCH more difficult to register for than wedding registries! LOL

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

HDBD- 17w4d

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-It's later in the evening so it's much larger now than in the morning, but I'm pretty sure I gotz a bump now ;) LOL

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

We picked out our bedding!

I think.

It's totally none of what I had originally imagined, but we like it. This is the actual Crib Set I think we'll get, including the valance & mobile. Then we'll add these night lights that go on the wall ladybug and the flower -since the cord to the flower is green, you can make it look like a stem (it's totally adorable!)

Then I plan on adding these with the valance, only half the length and having them tied to the side. I will add more greens and a little blue in there, and our furniture will be the espresso color.

Think this will look ok? Any ideas? :o)


Saturday, May 7, 2011

We're having a girl!!!

For now anyway :o)

MH and I went in for an elective u/s today at 17 weeks and the lady said she thinks it's a girl 100%! Of course we'll wait and see at our anatomy scan to verify, but I am so happy! She was very modest and kept her legs closed in the beginning, but after a little coughing and pushing she moved. It was adorable, she waved to us, then rolled over onto her belly and went to sleep (just like her momma) hehe

I did buy a onesie for my mom to surprise her on Mothers Day, but otherwise we'll hang tight on purchases just in case Amelia turns into a baby boy at the anatomy scan


Saturday, April 30, 2011

16 Weeks

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*How far along?: 16 Weeks

*Total weight gain: 4 lbs

*How big is baby?: The size of an avacado.

*Sleep?: Still waking up for the restroom, but I'm finally getting comfortable again

*How are you feeling physically?: Feeling really good. I've started getting heartburn the last few days, but other than that I'm feeling back to normal

*How are you feeling emotionally?: This week I had to deal with the idea of how much weight I will end up at. It was a little difficult to swallow, especially since I've NEVER been this heavy to begin with. BUT, bring me a healthy baby and I'll gain whatever I need to!

*Best moment this week?: Hearing the heartbeat at the doctor's office. It sounds a lot different than on my home doppler

*Movement?: Nope.

*Food cravings?: Mexican food!

*Labor signs?: Nope

*What I miss: A glass or three of my Pinot Noir

*What I'm looking forward to: Our anatomy scan!

*Random Thoughts: I wonder what color eye's the bebeh will have?

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Pretty good site- you gotta take it as is, but it can be pretty informative! I liked this college article since I went to college and actually did come out with debt (surprise, surprise)




Sunday, April 24, 2011

13 1/2 weeks vs. 15 weeks

I will start off stating that all of my pictures so far have been after dinner so I'm not technically this large yet.... it's some food belly too :o) Still, I'm thinking this is pretty big for 15 weeks.... lets just hope this isn't insight for what's to come!!!!

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Thursday, April 21, 2011

Nursery Ideas

So I have this vision in my head of bright colors. That's all I want- bright greens, blues, oranges and pinks.... here's some ideas :)

*The Bright room*

Our walls won't be this color, but these are pretty much the colors I want:
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Graco Lauren
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Graco Sarah
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Bedding ideas:
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Breathable Bumper
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*Or the Monkey/Jungle Theme*

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---- Thoughts?? ----


Saturday, April 16, 2011

14 Weeks

*How far along?: 14 Weeks

*Total weight gain: Still on strike. The scale and myself are not in agreement currently

*How big is baby?: The size of a lemon.

*Sleep?: I wake up often to use the bathroom or re-situate but otherwise sleeping good

*How are you feeling physically?: Feeling great! Fatigue is slowly easing up :) I think my abdomen is stretching a bit lately since I've had this aching feeling going on

*How are you feeling emotionally?: Feeling pretty dang good! Mr. Papps says my emotions are on red alert though... poor guy

*Best moment this week?: Hearing the heartbeat on my home doppler

*Movement?: Nope.

*Food cravings?: No real cravings, though ice cream has sounded good (not usually an ice cream fan)

*Labor signs?: I hope not :/

*What I miss: Sleeping comfortably

*What I'm looking forward to: Having another day off tomorrow :)

*Random Thoughts: I can't help but wonder how this pregnancy would have made me feel had I not dealt with infertility.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Bought my first real baby item :)

As nervous as I am about buying something more expensive (for me anyway), I am thrilled and cannot wait to get it in the mail!! I bought the diaper bag... LINK I got the charcoal black :)

I first saw someone talking about it on a board, but then I did a lot of my own research and decided that this is hopefully just what I'm looking for :)


Thursday, April 14, 2011

Porn boobs

So, someone posted on my bmb about how their breasts are becoming like those of which you would see on pornstars, which got me thinking..... so I looked down at my once 34D boobs and noticed I have a third one growing in there. WTF!!!! When did this happen?

Apparently when I put my bra on in the morning it's ok, but as the boobies shift, the third one sprouts haha Ok so maybe it's not that bad, but it is without a doubt time to go bra shopping! I've heard it gets the worst towards the end, and even more so once the baby is born... I have a feeling I will be shopping in the mid alphabet section for sizes :/

At least the hubs is excited :)


Monday, April 11, 2011

13w3d PIP

So, here's my first picture that I have taken..... saying goodbye to first tri!!

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Technically it's 9pm at 13w2d, but I'm fast forwarding 3 hours because dammit I want to be in 2nd tri already :P


Thursday, April 7, 2011

Blood test results are in!!

I'm beyond happy! I know I'm not old, but still older enough to have more concern (per my doctor)- I'm 32.

So my results for Down Syndrome are 1 in 2,941, and Trisomy 18/13 is 1 in >10,000!! I go back 4/24 for another blood screen and regular OB appointment where I guess they will test for more possible defects.

Added bonus for today... I just realized I'm almost out of the 1st Trimester! Holy shit!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

I am out at work!!!

So, today I decided to out my pregnancy at work. I had a meeting with my team, and told them I would be taking some time off so the hubs and I can spend time with LO. It was a great feeling. So my plan is to deliver sometime in October, and stay home until after the New Year- hopefully :)

I can't tell you how good it feels to not have this secret! It's funny because a few of the ladies on my team said they had a feeling. I was like "Say wha? How?" lol

****For those of you who I'm FB friends with, I'm not coming clean just yet, so please don't post anything for at least a week or two if you would! I'm not ready to take the plunge all together just yet!****


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

What an emotional day!

My day started off so peaceful. I was excited since our NT Scan was today, and I couldn't wait to get past this milestone. I left work mid day to head over to Kaiser for the u/s only to find out it won't happen (explanation here)

Then, I get off work and drive home.... I head to our front office to pick up some paperwork... and come to find out there is some extra work MH and I have to do before the papers get signed. Wish we would have known 3 weeks ago when I brought them down to you! Now they are due this Friday!! ::Sigh::

Aaaaaand theeeeeen, my mom happens to call just as I walk through the door and had burst into tears. I answer thinking she might sooth me and make me feel better, but she goes on to tell me how bad stress is for the baby. Geeee, thanks mom! After I told her how I felt about that, we made up and got off the phone :)

Now I'm just tired again, hoping to hit the sack at 8pm again tonight! Going to bed so early has never felt so good. Just call me g-ma Papps!


Thursday, March 24, 2011

What a month!

I'm so sorry I've been slacking in the blogging department. Time has just gotten away from me!

Fatigue has been visiting me since my BFP, so I basically come home from work, and veg on the couch.... then in bed between 8:30 and 9:30 (I live an exciting life right now) :o)
I count my blessings daily that my ticker continues to grow each day, and that today I am still pregnant. It's starting to sink in that this might be my take home baby, and I'm thrilled! MH and I decided to spill the beans and go public after out NT scan next week if all goes ok, well at least we'll start sharing.

My best friend has been staying with us since Friday..... she lives out of state and is hoping to move here. She dropped off her resume yesterday and already got a call back for an interview today! I'm so excited for her! I think it would be awesome to have here here, especially once baby Papps arrives :)
I'm hoping to muster up enough energy to stay up late and do the underground tour here in the city. I think she would love it!

So yeah, this is my uneventful and boring life right now. I haven't written much mainly because there is not a whole lot to talk about LOL Hopefully in the next few weeks I get more energy and hopefully will have more to write about :)


Monday, March 14, 2011

There's still a baby there!

I can't tell you how relieved I was to see a flickering heart beat again. When the RE was moving the wand around, the baby waved at us a few times! Totally melted my heart. HB is at a strong 170, the sac and everything else looks good :) I have officially graduated to my midwife & OB!!

Here's a picture of our little gummy bear
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Sunday, March 13, 2011

Long time no see!

Sorry I've been MIA, I've been a bit plagued with fatigue and not as active lately
For fun..........

NICKNAMES: Papps. Seriously :)~
BIRTHDAY: September
ZODIAC: Have been a Virgo all my life. Fuck the new Zodiac signs
EYE COLOUR: Depends on what I wear, but either blue, green or gray
HAIR COLOR: Brown with some caramel highlights right now
FROM: I'm a Cali girl at heart
PETS: Two kitties we rescued..... Leo and Chloe
FAMILY: Um, yes?
PERSONALITY: Type A sums it up, but I have a very big heart and love to do things for others
HOBBIES: Scrapbooking, snowboarding, camping, hiking, reading
LIKES: See above. Right now #1 is sleeping though :o)
DISLIKES: Stress, uncertainty
FAVORITE ACCENTS: Irish, English & Greek!
FAVE ACTORS: Tom Hanks, John Travolta, Nick Cage
FAVORITE ACTRESSES: Sandra Bullock, Reece Witherspoon, Katherine Heigl
FAVORITE ANIMALS: Tigers (specifically Siberian) and domestic furbaby cats
FAVORITE MUSIC: I enjoy anything but Opera. Right now I've been listening to 90's grunge lol mixing in some top 40 pop
FAVORITE BOOKS: Twilight Series, Laurel K Hamilton's vampire series, Daniel Steel
FAVORITE CANDY: Anything peanut butter and chocolate!
FAVORITE DRINK: Non Alcoholic- grape juice, alcoholic- Wine (Pinot Noir)
FAVORITE FLOWER: Gerbera Daisies and Sunflowers
FAVORITE HOLIDAYS: Halloween, Thankgiving and Christmas. Christmas my favorite over all
FAVORITE NUMBER:To play- Softball, to watch- Football

1. SPIDERS!!!!
2. Being alone in the dark
3. Not achieving my goals

1. Greek & Italian
2. How to be totally computer savvy
3. How to relax

1. Sweet Pea lotion by Bath and Body Works
2. Entertainment coupon book
3. Our 6 week u/s pics

1. I give myself pedicures weekly (and summertime I go get them done professionally)
2. I have two tatoos, one on my leg, and one on my shoulder
3. I don't mind confrontation (not physical)

1. Seriously
2. Fuck (in every form)
3. What? hahahaha

Friday, March 4, 2011

Free Femara Prescription

So, when I cycled I used this website, printed up this coupon, and had my RE sign it. I brought it in to a pharmacy and got my Rx for free! (so I know it works)

The only thing is I only got 10 pills (based off of my dosage needed for that cycle) instead of a months worth because the RE's nurse only filled it for what I needed. BUT STILL, saved me over $100!

Try it out, I promise it works :) Just click on Print, and you'll get your unique code Click Here


Thursday, March 3, 2011

A new car!

Ok, well not really a new car just yet, but I brought my car in Tuesday for a new clutch, new brakes and suspension so it's kinda new right? lol

I decided to keep my 2001 Honda Civic for at least another year just to be on the safe side money wise, so since my car needed some major repairs, I figured when is a better time to fork out the cash than when I get my taxes back!?! Well, I get to pick it up today and I am beyond thrilled!

I'm very grateful they gave me a rental car to use, but man every night as soon as I walk through the door it's straight to the shower. This car makes me feel so dirty! Today I'm exchanging it for MY car and I'm so happy!

My car will be brand new! Well kinda sorta ;)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

We added to our family :)

So we did end up adopting that kitten I pictured below. We think she's about 11 months, but we'll be bringing her into our vet for a closer look. She's such a love bug, just very shy. So far she's taken a liking to our cat tower in the second bedroom, though she's slowly been venturing out. As I write this she and Mr. Papps are chillin on the couch watching TV :)

Our other kitty Kimo is so excited to have a new playmate, so every time she runs around he thinks it's go time. Pretty hilarious to watch since she acts like he's there to kill her, and the faster she runs away, the faster he runs to catch up. LOL We're hoping to see them spoon soon :)

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