So today was the first time I truly felt fat since I've been pregnant. I know I was still larger than I ever had been when we were cycling because of all the weight I gained, but this was a different feeling. I've been so in love with my body growing something inside me; it made me feel so good. Of course I'm going to get larger right? Well that is how I felt up until today.
I wore this outfit that just made me SO uncomfortable. You know the kind where you're contstantly tugging at the clothes because you feel like they are just riding up or not looking correct? I felt like I put baby water wings on my arms and stuffed a pillow in the ass of my pants. Yup, that was me. I was so ashamed that I let myself get to that point even before we got pregnant... and now, by the time the baby is here, I will have hit a weight that I should NEVER have been at, even if I were carrying twins.
Oh well, I guess there is not much I can do about it now. I'd still take Jaba the Hut to ensure my baby girl comes out healthy and safe! Makes me wonder though if I'm only 5 months now, how am I going to feel at 7 or 8, when it's 100* outside and I've swelled up like a puffer fish :)~
Oh Pappsie, I'm sure it was just an emotionally off day making you feel that way. You're beautiful!
ReplyDeleteYou're going to feel like shit, but as you said, it's all worth it! And you'll be amazed at how the weight comes off right away, at least some of it. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is a time in your life where gaining weight is a beautiful thing! I know it still sucks but after you have the baby you will be so busy it will come off. I was seriously so busy between my son and step son I was luck if I remembered to eat!
ReplyDeleteThanks you guys.... I know it's totally worth it, just makes it hard to see it happen!! Hopefully I'm one of those lucky ones who lose it all quickly!!!
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