Tonight has been rough

Started off normal.....MH worked today, so I spent the day running errands and watching my Sunday chick flick. I have always gone though happy and sad spells about our TTC journey, which normally passes quickly- but I seem to be in this funk. I'm uber bloated from the trigger shot, I cried myself to sleep last night because of the pain I was in (felt like gas bubbles, just without the gas) and every time I see a baby lately, my heart crumbles a bit. My ever so positive other half is becoming less optimistic, and I have to admit.... I'm scared shitless of what the future holds for us.

I hate the idea of needing another bump break, but I'm not sure how much more I can take. I stay because I want to support my lovely friends always be here for them; to be able to share in their ups and downs. But in the same breath, I feel like I need to step away from the interwebz and focus on everything but TTC (minus our upcoming medicated cycle) ::insert eyeroll::

If I do take a break, please know it is nothing personal. I'm so happy for all the BFP's over the last year plus.... in a way it's what keeps hope alive. I may just need to refocus things if I can't get past this.
Thanks for listening

xoxo
-Papps